I am so grateful for the friends i have. Not all of us get along perfectly. But for the most part it's a supportive environment. And when it comes to me and my closest friend. Although he sometimes does stuff that's kind of bothersome. We have a level of respect for each other which means we don't have to keep our mouth shut to each other. And just say "hey be better about that" i know it might seem like a simple thing. But a lot of days it's one of the biggest things keeping me at peace. And knowing that no matter the soon to be or the long term. I'll be okay. Can't ask for much more. I mean,a girlfriend would be nice but.. I've still got some maturing to do before I'm willing to let someone put their heart on the line for a fool like me. \endofbeforebedvent